We lost you! I want you to know that I start one of my last 8 classes for my Master’s degree today. We talked about my goal only a few million times on the football field. You are still my inspiration!
I feel you yelling at me to get to work now! xoxo
(Orginally Published on: Mar 3, 2013 @ 3:15 )
One month ago, I found out I lost a dear friend at the young age of 44. She has been on my mind constantly. Her 11-year-old son never leaves my thoughts. I pray that he gains the strength to cope with his loss. I can only image how he feels and how her family is dealing with their loss. I want to call, email or text her like we did (almost) everyday. I can’t take her name out of my phone.
Our friendship had just reached a deeper level. I feel justified that I did the right thing for her. I stood up for her when she needed me and I did what I believed was right. I’m so glad she knew this before she passed away. She actually thanked me for it. Today, I went back to find that special email:
“Hopefully you are feeling better and non-stressed today. I’m not so I don’t want you to be either. But thank you for being such a caring, good and supportive friend. If they want this league to go under then let it, but it is not due to us trying to make it better but their unwillingness to see things as better but wanting to control. It’s all personal but I will prevail in the end.” – Brinda
I realize now that she did prevail. It’s not in the way (or timing) we all wanted but she is in a better place. For all of us that really knew her, we understand the great loss. We will have to figure out how to live without her. It won’t be easy but I can hear her telling us right now to “move on!” Heaven gained one tough but lovable guardian angel on Feb 2nd. I know that she has my back now.
For those that chose not to get to know her on a personal level, well, it’s your loss! I can only hope that her death has taught you to not be so hypocritical. Life is way too short for that nonsense!
If I could send her an email today, it would say:
“Brinda, we’ve already moved our families to a new league and football family, in your honor. You guided us there, I know it. I’m also moving forward with the next phase of my professional life. You and I talked about it often, especially since your boyfriend Colten was born. It’s only fitting that my first inspiration of writing is about you. I want to thank you for your friendship! You were one of those special people who came into my life for a reason and I am forever changed!” – Mechele